1. |
Blood Cells
04:08
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Am I only ashamed because you caught me?
Is it because I caught myself thinking we were the same?
It's all you taught me
And I believed every word, but I see it now
And I was always by your side
Your mind, only a tension for me to misguide
(Yeah, I believe it)
Are you only sustained by some ill instinct?
We came alive with a devilish laughter
Out of a mouth that’s too sick to speak
When only time can save or sever us
After all you put me through
Submerged in your breath
How could I not know that it was true?
(But it) was not you all along
All of the choices I made wrong
Under your skin is where I'll stay
Like blood and your cells, not far away
Are we so lonely and insane that we refuse to leave
Each other's sides despite the bilious detest?
Hanging in the silence hidden in between
Confident lies, I’ll let them chew us to pieces
And I will always be your hound
You wrote on my walls before you burnt them down
(I can’t believe it)
Was not you all along
All of the choices I made wrong
Under your skin is where I'll stay
Like blood and your cells, not far away
Well I’m a ghost, you’re a maze
We are suffering
Under love and in the blood
Under all you say
In the end, in the end, oh
Like a ghost, I'm afraid
Isn’t it cliche?
When our love causes blood
to spill out our veins?
In the end, it always ends this way
You always had to undermine me
and I said
Oh, you always had to undermine me
But it was not you all along
All of the choices I made wrong
Under your skin is where I'll stay
Like blood and your cells, not far away
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2. |
Dissolve
04:28
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Everywhere I go, I dissolve
Everywhere you are, I’m involved
Encapsulating, masticating
And every single time, it’s my fault
And everything I learn, I forget
Everything I do, I regret
You love or hate me
I love and hate you
When death is but a carnal duet
I’m wishing that I could be unfeeling
My mind is reeling for real
And when you’re revealing the things that you’ve been concealing
It’s clear that your love is leaving
And I don’t wanna believe it,
I caused it, don’t wanna see it
And karma’s coming for me now
I remember when you looked at me, your eyes would light up
Now when we in the sheets, I’m just another body on top
Like it means nothing, your eyes are dead, it’s disgusting
The way you said "I need something and sorry isn’t enough"
I was always under your spell
I’ve fallen deeper as you’re on your way out
Ignored the voice and caused a wreck
Given the choice, we’re always left guessing
Met me halfway, thought we could win
Until I threw you away to pull you back in
You’re my reluctant puppeteer
And I can’t force you to stay here
Everywhere I go, I dissolve
Everywhere you are, I’m involved
Encapsulating, masticating
And every single time, it’s my fault
And everything I learn, I forget
Everything I do, I regret
You love or hate me
I love and hate you
When death is but a carnal duet
I drown my broken spirit with spirits, searching for clearance
Adherence to a new fractured appearance
I’ve fallen back to the dearest lover I had
It’s the nearest bottle or bag, when the mirror’s
No longer showing a man but a hollow corpse being dragged
Back and forth by just a little wisp of burning essence
Blacken my course, like what is the point? Been hurting since adolescence
Feeling no rapture, feelings were captured only to turn obsessive
When every new chapter’s another disaster to finally learn my lesson
I was always under your spell
I’ve fallen deeper, lead me back to myself
Embraced the voice that spun a lie
Given the choice, we’re only left dying
Met me halfway, thought we could win
Until I threw you away to pull you back in
You’re my reluctant puppeteer
And I can’t force you to stay
We was one, but not enough for ourselves
Into each other’s arms, we had to run from ourselves
And If I never find anybody else,
Once is enough for a sense so unbound
Everything we do, we’re insane
Everything we lose, what a shame
My words are worthless
You’ve changed through hurt and
I blame you when I’ve done worse or the same
And everything I learn, I forget
Everything I do, I regret
You love or hate me
I love and hate you
When death is but a carnal duet
Everywhere I go, I dissolve
Everywhere you are, I’m involved
Encapsulating, masticating
And every single time, it’s my fault
And everything I learn, I forget
Everything I do, I regret
You love or hate me
I love and hate you
When death is but a carnal duet
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3. |
Can I Have Some?
03:46
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Skin gets picked from the bone
Come and live alone
You don’t need any experience here, it’s cool
You won’t be fuckin around with nobody
In no part of your head.
Let me ask you
Can I have some?
I could make you
If I had some.
Sixteen dollars a week’s
been keeping me off my feet
And I’m as solemn and sweet
as your sleep when it’s filled with your fears
And I will not soon forget
How I hate your sex appeal.
Let me ask you
If you got none
I will take you
To the wild sun
The animals scream,
“When will they follow?“
Well, I have answered
and now it’s your turn.
As real as our fallacies
Wish you meant nothing to me
I lost my grip as I reached
for that drink and it spilled, fed your tears
And I will not soon forget
The letdown in your eyes.
Let me ask you,
If you got none
I will take you
From the wild sun
Don’t need to ask why
Are you so hollow?
I seen your answer, you
Act like a cancer but
I know I’m worse still
Can’t bare the concept
Your whole existence is
Nothing but regrets
Take back the liquid
Take back your ransom
I’m gonna make you
Cause now I have some.
Calling
You with words that are stolen
I think you know it
The niceties have fallen
They’re crawling out our mouths and choking us
It’s so appalling
When you said you were “all in”
I knew it wasn’t all in
My fault for falling.
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4. |
One of a Kind
02:55
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5. |
Back of the Door
03:30
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I can see myself in others
I can see your worthless collar
When you don’t succeed, you
Wanna alter me, it’s true.
All our pleasures, all our demons
They steer the ship, they crash and sink us
A love, once taut
has now been hung.
Oh how you sold me out
Cause you can’t stand yourself
Yeah, I’ll be listening, I’m at the back of the door.
Try to wear me out.
Have you seen yourself on weekends?
When your lovers try to be friends?
And you tear them down too
Just to mount your crown, it’s true.
But your memory’s non existent, so
I’ll be laughing, I’ll be singing
about the times that I was just like you.
And oh, you’re so sincere
When your hands just cannot steer
And I’ll be listening, I’m at the back of the door.
Try to wear me down.
Oh, you're freaking me out
When all you said
Was to muster your confidence.
And oh oh oh oh oh
You’re bringing me down, friend
When all I did was
Collect all your shit.
Tell me are you satisfied
With this pretense you call your life?
And I’m not listening, I killed you at my front door.
Three minutes early
I loved you at first blood clot.
I won’t be here long
I’m at the back of the door.
Always in your thoughts.
Thoughts
Thoughts
Thoughts
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6. |
Like I'm 40
03:52
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I’m livin’ out my life like I’m 40
Desperately inside out of the new and the old ways
I’m livin’ out my life inside a forty
Desperate today
Old wounds, now just falling off scars
No debts to repay
I’m sickened by the wealth in her scent
How it deceives me
Always deceives me
Always had a melody for war
Never pushed nobody too far
And if you girls think you can ride me out…
You’ll just deceive me
Always deceive me
This always has to delve
Down to where we can’t
Keep away, I look
To your face for a way out
Life is an empty box inside an unmarked grave
And it’s not worth our time today
I’m livin’ out my life like I’m 40
Desperately inside out of the new and the old ways
I’m livin’ out my life inside a forty
Desperate today
Old wounds, now just falling off scars
No debts to repay
I’m sickened by the words in her sentences
How they de-
This always has to delve
Down to where we can’t
Keep away, I look
To your face for a way out
Life is an empty box inside an unmarked grave
And it’s not worth our time today
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7. |
Wrong
04:41
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Mirror or window?
I can't tell the difference.
The hair out of my head
Can swallow the distance
From here to Peru or
Peru out to Pluto
We're hollow, protecting
this new love, this new woe.
Questions, oh, questions
Are friends of the lessons
You taught me to act and
Throw out my possessions
But I had to keep what allowed me to sleep
In the night.
All I did
Was not enough.
Oh, you took me for what I was not.
But I love you
No matter what you do
And in the night we'll sing
"Heaven is lost, we're fading out
What are you on about?"
Once she grips his heart;
Haven't we lost this all before?
I don't know.
The difference between us is calling out, screaming for you.
When Heaven is lost
and Hell echoes the same
"I know it's back to me alone."
Victor or victim?
I can't tell the difference
It's clear our addiction's absurd and relentless
With my hand in your hand
I lose sight of the man
That's inside as he cries "this can't happen again"
I can't help but think this is all kind of worthless
You bottomed your drink as I sank to the surface
And I couldn't keep what allows me to sleep
In the night.
All that I am
is not enough.
Oh, you took me for what I was not.
But I love you
That is in 22 catches
The times have changed
I know, it's strange
and I can't believe this is happening.
You took it away when I gave it all,
All up for you
And it's the same old story.
Yeah, it's the same old story.
Where have you gone?
You've got it all wrong.
What have you done?
You've got it all wrong.
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